Amanda Unvarnished

I’m going to just start typing and see where this ends up. I apologize in advance for the rambling.

I enjoyed the nice long weekend. It’s nice to have one of those every once in a while. I spent a good bit of it thinking, mostly lamenting the fact that I allowed myself to become less jaded since accepting the job last year. I mean, I’ve not allowed myself to become naive, but nonetheless, I allowed myself to give my corporate superiors the benefit of the doubt when I probably shouldn’t have. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not pining for Convergys. I like the fact that I can count on none of my coworkers coming to rob me, and I like the fact that accessibility is a part of my workday. I suppose maybe I thought, on some level, that since this is a smaller company, people would be in closer proximity and so would have to view each other as human beings, which might prevent some of the back-stabbing and other miscellaneous crap that went on at Convergys. And to a certain extent, that’s true, but I now wonder if that doesn’t have something to do with the smaller number of people, coupled with the highly specialized nature of the job, and not with the people themselves.

I’ve been thinking also that I need to make this job work for me, that maybe next year when my lease ends, or gets close to ending, I may look into moving to Tenessee. Granted, it would have to be a small town, because my current salary will not permit me to rent some place in Nashville that would be in a safe neighborhood, nor would it permit me to really even survive. When I took this job, it was with the knowledge that it would go where I go, which is definitely a plus. So I think it’s time I test out that plus. I’ll be giving that some more thought and planning in the coming year.

Until next time.